I'm making the cake.

What do you think? Good, Bad? Don't care? Well that happens.

I've just been feeling kinda blah recently, which is nothing new, so I've been just watching TV to see if that will at least cheer me up.  I've been kinda obsessed with Logo TV's "Set up Squad" right now. Did I make a bunch of horcruxes when I wasn't looking because I relate with most of the people who are on the show. I Think/HOPE watching this I'll learn some tips and figure out how to talk to people. I'm actually watching it right now, thank you internet. I feel like I have no and mean absolutely no skills when trying to talk to boys. I don't know when someone is hitting on my, I don't think that has even even happened to me. I talk to everybody like I would normally if we were in conversation. If I find myself attracted to that person however I sense that I don't tend to make eye contact which can seem kinda shady (Thanks Set Up Squad) or just clam up because I don't want to have a case of foot in mouth.

Which then brings me to a boy. I friend requested him on Facebook and he added me so that's a plus but I have no clue on how to strike a conversation with him on chat. I found out he was a fan of Green Lantern but I kinda ruined that when I said I hated the movie, which he said was awesome so there goes that. Also whenever he posts something I feel I'm too stupid to even know him. I feel like a major creeper. The last person I added to my Facebook that I thought was nice defriended me and I possibly blocked me, when I typed his name into Facebook it says he didn't exists. I honestly have no idea what I did.

I met him during a group call New Alternatives at our local LGBT center and we didn't speak really, but the next meeting is coming up soon so maybe I'll grow a pair!

Best hoping and possibly more post as well.

xoxo Alan

And its over

My 5 months for working for disney world resort is done. I didnt get my extension so by jan 7th i have to be out of vista way and turn in my cast id. Its gone by to fast!! I was just now truely setteling with the vp cps! There are only a little of us since the fall advantage cps left. This program has been an amazing experiance that i think you should do (if you enjoy the disney parks)
In 5 months ive:
Been to a gay club
Seen multiple drag shows
Bought a pair of pumps for my future drag
Lived on my own without the nagging of my hispanic mother
Be able to disinguish (sp?) An aussie accent
Meet amazing people from all over the US, Austrailia and New Zealand
Be able to be myself and not hide my homosexuality from anybody

Feeling: blah

I don't know why but right now I feel sick to my stomach. I had a pretty good day. I went to DAK, then school then to EPCOT then hung out with the some co-workers at a bar. (I didn't drink, in case you were wondering) but somehow I feel depressed. I have an feeling on what it is.... Well I actually know why I'm feeling like this but I shouldn't be feeling like this. 

I guess this is what happens when you fall for someone you know will never like you back. Reading back on these blogs I always keep going back to this subject and I still haven't found out why I keep doing it. I think it's because I get to know the person before I start to have feeling, then I get those crazy butterflies that always show up when you see that person. Even though you feel like you're going to throw up chunks you still hang out because the person is just a cool person to hang out with. 

Now I knew that I was NEVER going to have a chance but I couldn't keep this secret away from the person because it felt wrong for him not to know. I always thought he kinda knew but I just had to make sure. Sure when you plan it in your head you hope for the 2nd most worst thing to happen but what happens when you get a response you would have never thought off. "Human emotions are whimsical and irrational" Then the closing of his bedroom door. How am I supposed to process that! I might feel like I'm more mature then what a 20 year old is but for someone who's never had a solid relationship that wasn't just to be used messes with your mind a bit... right? 

The next day we texted each other back and forth and he thought that was he's way of saying "It's ok, you'll find someone yada yada yada"... -.- REALLY! Come on. That's like a stab in the back. Ok I get it that I sprung it out of no where but could you have been a little more nurturing with your no. Now I'm putting to much of a blame on him because from what I know he hasn't been with anyone ether so we are in the same boat and we don't know how to handle it. 

I feel like I should be able to get over this and rebuild. The funny thing is that some of the friends I did make are telling me that they are going to set me up with someone. I think it's sweet that they are doing that. I really don't know how to respond to something like that. I know it probably isn't going to happen and I'm going to go back home without growing as a gay man, but at least I made some great friends along the way. 

I should stop being a debbie downer and look forward to the last 2 months of my program (unless I extend). I just started to talk to a friend about this and it seems like he'll be helpful. He's older so that will be good.

I just wish they thought you this kind of shit in High School.

 

it's been a while.

Long time no see right!


So, I've been working for the Walt Disney company for about a month now and I'm doing pretty good. I've gotten used to working as a vacation planner (I sell the park tickets) and I like it.

I've gotten to make new friends that I'm super glad to have met. If it wasn't for my roommate Keri I wouldn't think I'd have known all these people. I'm really happy to have him as my roommate. Himey, Will, Sean, Shane all these cool people surround me and it's feels good.

I've also gotten myself a crush on someone but I'll be keeping that to myself! lol. As always with me it's something that's never going to happen, so I'm used to it, but he's just nice company to have. I think he knows, I hope he doesn't mind. Maybe I'll grow some balls and do something about it. Who knows he could have feelings too?

I've been going to the parks alot and it's a great time for that too, since the parks are in the off season. I was surprised how most of my friends haven't been the the parks. It's great t see the there faces when I bring them on a ride. You can see the twinkle in there eye when seeing Mickeys Philharmagic, the fear when they see the Tower of Terror.

One month down and 4 to go.

/VENTING

Ok, so it's 3:24 and my parents just got back from a wonderful day at Walt DIsney World and what is the first thing that my mothers boyfriend does when he enters the house? Check every nook and cranny and bitch about how horriably dirty we left the house and how we are ungrateful blah blah blah. At... 3:24

When they woke up at 5AM to get to go to the park for ONE day. ONE freaking day and the house is now a crazy cesspool open to the vermin living in the backyard. Oh little cockroach would you like some water? Apple juice? A Slice of Cheese? Come inside my rented house, take a load off. 

I need 28 days to pass faster so I can get the FUUU out of this hell hole of a house and with the slamming of there door I now have 25 days 23 minutes, 58 seconds, and 04 of that other number on countdowns till I'm GONE.

Yeah
/venting.

NEW BLOG FOLKS!

hey guys! I know I haven't been writing on here lately and to be honest it's because I'm lazy and I really haven't been wanting to write anything. ... But besides that I've made a NEW blog for my Disney College Program happenings! I haven't got in yet so if I don't get in that blog will be closing as fast as my Music blog.  Just click on the list of link to check it out!

I'll still be posting on MisterNoLife when It's not Disney related but for the most part Things will be posted on my CP (College Program) blog. 

And I just want to say thanks for anyone who's read this and enjoyed it! :D

Girl Comics

Hey guys! When I'm not swamped with school and I'm not being the lazy slob I am. I enjoy to read comics  and the great guy that runs Thiryfiveminutesago.blogspot.com let me contribute to it so here's a post from there! Join and follow the Blog, then join and follow the Fan Page!  I'll Love you forever!!! Here's a taste of the post then click on the read more to get the whole thing.

Love it or hate it Girl Comics is here. I had no idea what I was about to read. The clerk just handed it to me with a chuckle and told me to read it. A book that's a compilation of short 1-3 page stories, I only found one or two short storys that I really liked. The clerk had been complaining about the name and the reason it's named that is because the whole series is done by women. Ok, I get it, a book made by girls so call it Girl Comics, but with a name like that, it's only going to attract the few girls that do walk into comic shops. Men aren't going to want to pick it up because the name insists feminine content and are going to avoid it like the plague, you know because comic book readers are touch bitches and steal lunch money from nerds. 

Click here for the rest!